So sick, I feel so gross!
I cannot even figure out if it is because of my depression or just the fact of going back to Hong Kong that makes me so sick.
People keep asking me about my flight schedule, but I have never been able to give anyone a firm answer.
I do not have any motivation to get my ticket at all. Many days I could just sit in my apartment, but I still did not choose to spend even just a few minute to look it up.
Last night, I was evaluating the true happy moments in my life. The first thing came to my mind is the two-year mission in Provo, Utah. The second thing was the time I went to school in BYU-Idaho. And then the third thing was my 15 or 16 birthday, it was because it was the only time my family came together and celebrated my birthday in my life. We ate seafood with hot pot style, and no one caused any argument. I still remember my smile when I went to bed that night.
Yeah, I did not have much good time there at home, Hong Kong.
I am scared of going back. I am old, but I have to start over and build up everything again.
I will miss all my friends here in United States like crazy.
I will miss all my moments.
I will miss all my emotions.
I will miss all my feelings.
I am sadly asking myself, "Why do have to always be separated from those I love?"
I cannot even figure out if it is because of my depression or just the fact of going back to Hong Kong that makes me so sick.
People keep asking me about my flight schedule, but I have never been able to give anyone a firm answer.
I do not have any motivation to get my ticket at all. Many days I could just sit in my apartment, but I still did not choose to spend even just a few minute to look it up.
Last night, I was evaluating the true happy moments in my life. The first thing came to my mind is the two-year mission in Provo, Utah. The second thing was the time I went to school in BYU-Idaho. And then the third thing was my 15 or 16 birthday, it was because it was the only time my family came together and celebrated my birthday in my life. We ate seafood with hot pot style, and no one caused any argument. I still remember my smile when I went to bed that night.
Yeah, I did not have much good time there at home, Hong Kong.
I am scared of going back. I am old, but I have to start over and build up everything again.
I will miss all my friends here in United States like crazy.
I will miss all my moments.
I will miss all my emotions.
I will miss all my feelings.
I am sadly asking myself, "Why do have to always be separated from those I love?"
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