Life has too many wonderful moments that need to be recorded! When you are able to remember something, it is a blessing! I always have a dream about writing a book or making a movie for the story is based on my life and my experience. Hopefully, it will begin from these words...
Monday, April 15, 2013
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
You will always be in my heart!
When I looked back, I think it was probably a good idea that you did not tell me that you were getting married! Because...because you knew that it would break my heart! 12 years is not a short amount of time, we have seen each other grew, we have seen each other progressed; we shared a lot of unforgettable moments!
I remember I was there many times when you were sad! So many times I just wanted to let you to borrow my shoulder. I did not like when you were crying for those boyfriends, because I was sad when you were crying, and I was jealous of those boys! I did not understand whey they did not cherish you!
When you called me that time and told me that you were engaged, my heart almost jumped out from my chest. But I had to pretend that I was happy, because I was with our mutual friends! I did not think anyone would be able to comprehend my feeling at that moment!
When I found out that you called off that engagement, I felt like I was in Heaven! Because I felt like I gained back my best friend!
I never told you I liked you because I wanted to and I needed to go on a mission! I did not want anything to be on my way! I gave up the chance to tell you!
On my mission, I missed you a lot! I will never forget that we were able to talk on the phone for a little bit during Christmas time! I wanted to talk to you more than anyone! When the time was up, our conversation got hanging up, my mind was cloudy and my sky was blue!
I missed you a lot on my mission! It took me a lot of courage to start writing you more toward the end of my mission! Because I wished to be with you after my mission!
The Lord blessed me that I was told by you how the way you felt about me! I was happy! We started dating! You were my girlfriend! But I was nervous at the same time! After my mission, I was lost! I had no idea how to deal with life at all! I knew you were suffering because you were so patient!
I did not know how to cherish you when you were with me! I was a bad guy! I was a bad boyfriend!
I did try to fight for you! But I knew it was too late! You had already moved on! Those couple months in 2010 was the worst time in my life! I was planning to come back to Hong Kong to get you back! But I was hurt by the way how you responded to me! But I deserved it! In the following years, I was still in love with you!
I told everyone, even myself that I did not have feeling for you anymore, which I did lie to everyone and even to myself! I wasted a lot of time!
Today, you already became someone's woman! But, I just want to say, whatever will change, but the way how I love you will never change! And you will always be in my heart!
I remember I was there many times when you were sad! So many times I just wanted to let you to borrow my shoulder. I did not like when you were crying for those boyfriends, because I was sad when you were crying, and I was jealous of those boys! I did not understand whey they did not cherish you!
When you called me that time and told me that you were engaged, my heart almost jumped out from my chest. But I had to pretend that I was happy, because I was with our mutual friends! I did not think anyone would be able to comprehend my feeling at that moment!
When I found out that you called off that engagement, I felt like I was in Heaven! Because I felt like I gained back my best friend!
I never told you I liked you because I wanted to and I needed to go on a mission! I did not want anything to be on my way! I gave up the chance to tell you!
On my mission, I missed you a lot! I will never forget that we were able to talk on the phone for a little bit during Christmas time! I wanted to talk to you more than anyone! When the time was up, our conversation got hanging up, my mind was cloudy and my sky was blue!
I missed you a lot on my mission! It took me a lot of courage to start writing you more toward the end of my mission! Because I wished to be with you after my mission!
The Lord blessed me that I was told by you how the way you felt about me! I was happy! We started dating! You were my girlfriend! But I was nervous at the same time! After my mission, I was lost! I had no idea how to deal with life at all! I knew you were suffering because you were so patient!
I did not know how to cherish you when you were with me! I was a bad guy! I was a bad boyfriend!
I did try to fight for you! But I knew it was too late! You had already moved on! Those couple months in 2010 was the worst time in my life! I was planning to come back to Hong Kong to get you back! But I was hurt by the way how you responded to me! But I deserved it! In the following years, I was still in love with you!
I told everyone, even myself that I did not have feeling for you anymore, which I did lie to everyone and even to myself! I wasted a lot of time!
Today, you already became someone's woman! But, I just want to say, whatever will change, but the way how I love you will never change! And you will always be in my heart!
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