Wandering

Well, I just realised it has been a while; two months.  School life is great, what can I say! I made many great friends again this semester; it wasn't something what I expected. 

I planned on focusing on school work alone; I wanted to put aside my social life here in school.  It turned out that I met so many awesome people.  Sometimes I wonder: how can this person can be just that great?  There is a lot I can learn from them.  It is a huge motivation that I want to serve them in different ways.

One of things I help out others, especially for those in my ward, a lot by being a match maker.  Of course I am not like those who find wifes and hushands for others!  Everyone deserve the opportunities of going on dates! I am just helping a little bit to set people up together! It may still sounds chessy! However, some people really needs this kind of helps!

Some people asked me, "Hey, Denis! So how about yourself?"  I don't really think of myself too much! "What can we do for you?" They asked.  I don't even know how they can help me!  I went on a few dates already so far in this semester. They were fun!  My friends always like to set me up!

A couple of night ago, we had a big group date together.  It was about 18 people! It was really fun! Probably one of the best group dates I have ever had!  The girl I went out with is a friend of my buddy! She is cool, very nice! She is a returned missionary! My buddy knows me well; he remembers that I hope my girlfriend/wife is a returned missionary.  I wanted to get to know her more.  However, there were too many people.  It was very difficult to avoid some distractions.  But I couldn't blame on it anyway.  When I looked at and talked to my date, I thought of another girl!  My mind was wandering here and there!

Isn't it sad? When I help people, but I can't even help myself! I don't want to get over her! I am hoping for hope!  Sometimes I wish I could have a car to drive for four hours and then tell her again I really care about and like her! Tell her that I would like to spend some time together to do stuff to get to know each other more! But it seems like there is never a right timing for anything! Have we ever been friends? I doubt it! Since day one we know each other, I don't think "friend" was a right word for us.  I don't where are we at?
I am wandering again on this never end path!